The Worst Part

There is so much difficulty in dealing with JJ, his feeding issues and his food allergies. Of course there is the stress of making sure he is getting enough to eat, enough calories, etc. Then there is the stress of making sure he does NOT eat the foods he is allergic/sensitive to. Then there is the stress of him becoming allergic to a new food because you have given him too much of it.

But I think the worst part of all this is the stress it is putting on the girls. JJ has three older sisters: 8yr, 6yr and 5yr. They are the sweetest girls anyone could ever ask for. They all adore JJ and JJ simply adores them.

And as long as JJ is not coughing, gagging or throwing up - life is wonderful.

But the panic and stress I hear and see in the children when Josiah coughs, gags or throws up just breaks my heart. And EE (our 6 year old) lost it and got hysterical when JJ was vomiting so hard that his face turned red and the dry heaves set in. She was totally convinced JJ was going to die. It took her several minutes for us to calm her down.

And the responsibility that the girls have in helping out with JJ. They have taken it upon themselves, little mothers that they are, to make sure JJ throws up in his throw up cup and not on the floor. They have also taken it upon themselves to make sure that JJ does not get any foods he is allergic/sensitive to. And they do it, not gently with care and concern. But excitedly with panic. It has my in complete tears.

Thanks for listening.