Where We Are Now

JJ has reverted back to a lot of old behaviors.

He is VERY clingy. Needing to be held almost constantly. This of course makes me feel HORRIBLE because everyone says that the cause of rumination is a bad relationship between mother and child. So I worry that I did something and JJ felt distant, and now, with the rumination, is terribly clingy in order to ensure that he stays with Mommy.

He is back to being VERY oral. Everything in the mouth. This was a behavior he developed while in the hospital, so I have hope that he is not too far gone.

He is losing weight again. Between March 18 and March 24 he lost 3 oz.

I can see the faces again and hear the noise of him ruminating. In all my research, I have never heard mention of a noise associated with rumination. And it is very faint (but very distinct). The only reason I believe I am able to hear it now is because I am acutely aware of everything JJ does because of the fear of rumination again.

More later which will show up as previous posts detailing our journey.

He is not eating solids very well (he had no problem after the hospital). Even on his favorite foods, I am lucky to get more than 3oz in him. He wants a lot of drinks (because of course drinks are easier to ruminate). I have been told to thicken his drinks with oatmeal cereal, but he doesn't take them. And now, he is even drinking less. Of course because he is not hungry/thirsty because the rumination makes him always feel like he has something in his tummy.